The ship was lost, surely. Instead of holding on, I let go at some point and fell into the waters. I thought I was dead, but I was choking in water rather than feeling nothing. When things had settled when I floated subconsciously almost dead, I swam meekly to the surface. There was nothing there at that point, given the whole thing happened in a few hours. I went to the car and there was no one inside. I was in tears, it was all my fault for leaving her behind.